latent feelings..

askum...

today i want to talk about pendam...

smua org pernah rasa betapa sakitnya memendan perasaan.the most hurt is when kita tak dapat nak luahkn smpai bila2...

first aku dengar lagu nie..sumpah,,aku mnangis mcm nak gila..sebb terkena batang hidung sndiri..

sedih kan,,bila kita tak dapat nak cakap 'saya suka awak'

actually one day..aku prnah tnya mmber2 aku ramai2 ..soalan aku,,,

"klau korg suka kat someone,,tapi,,takut nak cakap,,adakah korg akan terus simpan or korg akn bg tahu kat dia wlapun waktu tu keadaan amat baik untuk korg bg tau"

dan rmai yg bg pndapat..but,,the things that i wanna know is from his mouth..

and,,he told me that never told anyone about my feelings include the person until the feelings come byself in the heart person..

and that day,,i feel so hurt and i crying in the rain..truely...

and i made a decision to just forget my feelings bcoz i know,,if i tell him,,he will be mad,angry and hate me bcoz there nobody out there that love the fat person like me..ya,,maybe org akan cakap..mesti ada punya,,cuma ko blum jmpe,,,that not what i mean,,i say,,there is no charming,and good looking..

dah memang hakikat kan...cantik dgn kacak,,dan bgitu jgak sebaliknya..

dan kawan...aku akn buat apa yg ko suruh,..

never told until the person feel it by himself.......and i know that you will never feel it....

and u must know that the person that i never ever told is YOU....

greatest person in the whole world

You've been one of the greatest person in the whole world. 

Since the day that i was born you were there to support mom and me. 

Thank you for teaching ME the values of life the importance of life. 

I know that there were days that we didnt understand each other i know that you never keep any bad things. 

when we far,i still feel,how your hottest love,

how i miss your somber face.,present accompanied me,

peace that always thought in you display,

thought there is no anxiety,

DAD i know that im not a perfect , sometimes I'm naughty.

even though your heart is often guessed,when my words stuck

never once you leave me alone,

when i in distress,sad

you embrace the full meaning of,

when my disillusionment,

you taught me the meaning of true strength.......... 

BUT I salute you still for your big patience. 

No one is perfect. So are you dad, 

but you showed us that even your not perfect you can be the best dad

JUST YOU THE ONE AND BEING MY ONLY ONE

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.......!!!!

cuti..

school holiday...budak skola mne yg x nak cuti kan..tapi,,kdg2 cuti lama sgt pown bosn..x tau nak wat ape..aku bole rasakan.yg hari2 aku lakukan bnda yg sama..bgon,solat,wat kje2 umah,tgok cite korea,baca novel yg x prnh habis..study 5,6 helai,,dn tdo blik..x ada bnda baru nak buat,,nk walking2 apetah lagi...hahahahaha,,,untunglah jadi org yg dapt g jalan2 kan..
 tp,,pejam celik dah tggal 2 minggu je lagi sesi persekolahan akn naik,,but the difference is i was a prefect and senior next year,..become a form 5 student,,hahaha..org x caya aku noe dah fom 5,,aku tgok diri aku sndri aku x caya yg aku nie da fom 5 dan dari situ jgk aku sedar yg tanggungjawab semakin berat,,upsr dan pmr aku dah tmpuh dgn brjayanya,,Alhamdulillah,,,cuma aku agk risau sikit dgn spm yg bakal aku hadapi pada 2012 nie..adakah aku bakal mnulagi kjayaan yg sama atau.kputusn yg sedikit mengecewakn...seriusly,,aku mmg takut smpai kadang2 aku rasa aku x boleh bwt..tapi,,but when i thought the word that my late father said,,i feel some strange spirit comeand i hope i can do it...pray for me ya!!!!InsyaAllah......

life..

‎" JIka Kau Merasa Kecewa Pandanglah Ke Sungai 
Airnya Mengalir Biarpun Berjuta Batu Menghadang ...
" Jika Kau merasa Sedih Dan Sendiri Pandanglah Ke Langit 
Maka Kau Akan Sedar Bahawa Ada ALLAH Senantiasa Bersamamu ...ƸӜ




p/s:

betapa besarnya ciptaan Allah..setiap ciptaanNya mempnyai maksud yang tersendiri di sebaliknya..

macam tu jgak aku..kdg2 rasa mcmx adil,,tapi bila terfikir dan merenung balik atas ape yg ibu bapa aku korbankan untuk aku,,

takkan aku nak sia2kan hidup aku mcm tu je..so,sedikit sebanyak,,its give a big motivation for a person like me believe that Allah is always beside me..=)

'Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand.;;;'

i found this sentence and out of blue..i feel somethg about me with my condition now....some people say that im was arrogant and did not knowthem...but sometimes they must to know that we need some spaces to think positive before do somethg...some pople will undrstand but some of them was not..so,,give some spaces to people around us and when they being far away from uds..there must a reasons in the back........